The Wind Blows in The New Year

Last night as The Tire Guy and I lay in our bed, a storm approached.  A big, fat, loud, destructive, hold onto your shiny red shoes Dorothy; kind of storm.  Our basketball hoop blew over.  I heard shingles coming off the roof.  The barbecue blew across the patio and nearly tipped over.  It was anarchy.  Mother Nature was pissed.  It was nearly one o clock in the morning when we awoke and went out into its' wrath.  There was something very creepy about it.

After we cleaned up what we could and moved as much as we could into the garage, we went back to bed.  The worst of it seemed to be over but I couldn't go back to sleep.  One thought kept me awake, "It is nearly 2012."  And don't jump to conclusions, I'm not worried about the world ending.  No, I figure that will happen when it happens no matter if we believe in global warming or not.  We won't be able to change the course of the world anymore than we can change the number of stars in the sky.

The problem I have with it being nearly 2012 is that life is moving fast. Really fast.  Holy bat shit, Batman kind of fast.  Ferris Bueller said it would happen but I just never thought it would feel like this.  I'm still the girl that is anxious and excited about the adventures I've yet to take but I look at my face in the mirror and see someone much more grown up.  It's a little freaky.  I look at my son and see him grow and change and I fear that moment when I blink and I'm hugging a man and not a sweet little boy who calls me Mama.

Pathetic, I know.  I'm a big ol pool of mushy goo but I can't help it.  I want to press the pause button and do everything.  I don't want any of us to miss out on anything.  I don't make New Year's resolutions but I do try and be a better person, do more, be more, every chance I get and lately, the progress is slow and time is ticking fast.

My wish for all those who read my random thoughts; be the person you want to be.  Don't let anyone tell you what that is.  You define it.  You choose.  Choose to be better, smarter, cooler, funnier, kinder.  Choose to be the idea of yourself that you kept in your head as a child.  I know what that girl looks like for me, and it is my goal to be her.

She is kind of awesome.  She is fearless.  She isn't scared about missing anything, because she won't.

Happy New Year!

Cheers to you all!